... SwEEt SwEEt LiES ...

2010-05-26T07:54:00.000+08:00

here i m blogging again. near a yr, i ve left dis space without any new things 2 b said. there seems lots 2 b said. but... i kinda feel lazy haha

2009-07-15T10:15:00.002+08:00

whoaaaa.... it was ages since I last update. Too many things happened..

Anyway my paternal grandma had just passed away last week. It was a shocking news to my family. Me and my cuzzies was even shocked. Me n my cuzzies seems like bonded again.

Cant believe she is gone. She look as if she was in a deep sleep. Smiling in her sleep. Each time i visit her house I can still seems to feel her presence in the house.

Nothing should be regret as we cant turn back time. We should always tell the person we love how much they meant to us b4 it is too late.

My eldest cuzzin has restless nights since our grandma passed away.

For me I had restless nights before my paternal grandma passed away.

The final prayer tonight since last thurs. Everynight been praying n reciting prayers / doa for my late grandma.

Hope she will rest in peace. (Moga Allah s.w.t mencucuri rahmat ke atas Rohnya. Amin)

2009-03-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

What a "fantastic" day @ werk! hhahaha

Yeah got a surprise during lunch! My aunt from KL called me. Woo hoo!! It was nice to get to hear from her. Miss her though. Didnt expect the call. You just made my day. N finally, she got her car!!! Yeah next time, it will be easy for me n her to go out when I go KL.

April will be super packed for me!! Purposely to preoccupy my time.

Finally i feel much better after sharing my mom what I feel. Even though not directly but i noe she noes me too well.

Activities lining up for me : -

RETAIL THERAPY with the beautiful ladies of my best ever class DAC01.

My Ex Temp Staff 21st bdae party @ chalet

Cuzzie getting engaged.

Bdae celebration for my favourite aunty. her bdae 24 April, another aunt 24 May n MINE is 24 June.. lolz.. wat a coincidence. ALL 24.. heheheh meeting up with them. BEen so long since i last met them. Been missing a lot of family activities. hehee

Last but not least, meet ups with my secondary school frens. woo hoo!!!

2009-03-22T09:15:00.004+08:00

Meet up with moi International Biz Frens. Yeah the last time we met was like 5 mths or 6 mths ago.

We went for a cycling at East Coast Park. Before we rent the bike, it was sunny. Just as we rent and cycle few metres, it start to heavy rain. Maybe we should have cancelled n go bowling instead. But we still had fun. Catching up. While under the shelter, we talk abt wedding preparation, we talked abt ns stuffs and talk abt wat happened for the last couple of months and abt werk too. hahaha.

Then we continued to cycle again when it stop raining. Aft cycling, we met nis n the bf.

They didnt join for cycling coz nisa just had a night cycling the night before. She cycled from sembawang all the way to east coast park. Cool sia. If i noe, i joined too. Oh ya, n as a result that cause her buttock pain. ahaha.
eYeah then we ate @ East Coast Park. Been ages since I last eat dere.

Here some of the random pic taken using my 2 megapixel LG phone .ahhahhahaah

2009-03-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

Yeay! When to a wedding today. Omg I love the decoration. It was so beautiful. The food was not bad too.

Yeah tot of shopping in Singapore. But it was way too hot, n in addtion to that I am wearing heels n baju kurung (malay costume). So I requested to go home.

I m falling sick n tired now. Running nose. I hate it. K sleepy.

NiteZ!..

N I miss my dear ELMO!!!

2009-03-05T22:50:00.002+08:00

I am exhausted, emotionally and physically. I am angry and utterly disappointed. N I am crying myself to sleep. Its good my family had some urgent appointment so thats no need for me to be awkwardly standing around like a dummmy.
It seems tt Azli was taking advantage of the situation n he rub more salt to the pain. Thanks for making such remarks.

Damn, my dad told me to drive from airport to my house @ sembawang. N I wasnt at the right mind to drive. But I dun wan my parents to notice that. Hence I had to fight back n just focus on driving. Lucky nothing happen. Which I think I might have just lose control of the car.

I hate to depart that way. I wanted to stay with MakLong n let my parents settle the urgent matter.Coz I noe I will miss him badly. But nah,it makes no difference being dere or not at that moment.

Had wish a sweet depart but too bad for me it has to be this way. I cant create a sweet memory for myself. Yeah he has a sweet memory during his depart but not for me. Anyway as long as he is happy. N I am happy for him.

2009-02-07T09:16:00.002+08:00

Here me blogging while waiting for the gals n dude to reached JB.

Also checking on my cuzzie flight from Aussie. Yeah finally he is coming down. N reached Singapore Changi Airport @ 11.50pm. ZZZ very late. n i got to know abt it yesterday. so last minute.

Told him i not fetching him, yeah he kinda sound sad over the phone. For sure I was lying. ahaha. Of coz I will be fetching him. Like DUH~ hope he dint read my blog. hahaha. No matter how tired or sick I m, anything for my dearies.

TT goes to those I waiting for them to reach jb.

So long nvr meet tt kuku also.. the last time we met was last yr. haaha..
Double happiness today YEAH. tot of wanting to put some pics.. but i realise my laptop no pics.. ahahha.. will take more pics today n post.

2009-01-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

argghh! expected tts wat ppl gonna think. coz i nvr try to explain myself. Let it be. HE knows wat happen. I forgive n forget. But the scar will remain.

2009-01-26T12:20:00.002+08:00

I suddenly woke up in the middle of the nite.. thanks to the fireworks.
It was so near my house. As the kids are playing with it @ the playground.

Happy Chinese New Yr my beloved frens.

As I was awake, I tot of listenng to my songs from my hp.
I note tt i got 2 unread sms. One is happy chinese new yr wish n one is from shikz.
Frm shikz sms, then i noe abt az engagement. Ya anyway, not invited so i not gg. Congrats for her anyway. If invited, I might turn up i guess.. hahah
Anyway i can save my money from buying the gifts. hahah . *evil grins*

Save money for my trip to my dream holiday destination.

Looking forward for our DAC outing come this 7 Feb.C u all .. damn it is so hard to meet up with all esp when the guys still in ns. zzzzzzzzzzz

Lots of love for those who love me.. hahaha.. Babes we should retail therapy more. Nah CT, i wont nag abt wat happen on last retail therapy trip.. haahaha.. just take extra precaution next time k darling.. haahaha

Yeah Elmo, kakak misses u k!

2009-01-24T23:26:00.004+08:00

Just as I was thinking to post a happy entry.

2009-01-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

omg lucky i check my mail. pooof i saw a reminder.. n its my cuzzie bdae today. damn! i nearly forget. ok.. just in time. i manage to wish him.. haha. lucky my prepaid still have credit..

School just commence and workload the volume suddenly surge. I m totally shagged. Nitez

2009-01-04T17:45:00.002+08:00

Hola!

My dear 2 colleagues came down to jb yest. JG is with his gf. Whilst NWS was alone. So it was like a double date..But it is not la hhaha. Ate @ Fish Manhattan. Then we watched movie, The Outlanders.

Omg the movie is too bloody. Feel like puking while watching it. Didnt have apetite to eat the popcorn. hahaah..

Been wanting to change skin but lazy ah.. Lazy2

2009-01-01T18:33:00.003+08:00

Hola to all! Happy New Yr 2009. I think its not too late to say Selamat Menyambut Maal Hijrah for muslim frens our dere. :)

New Beginning. 2008 ended beautifully. Hopefully for the better of 2009.
Looking forward what is the happening in 2009.

Rite aft werk meet my two lovely aunties (they are in their twenties).
I watched TWILIGHT again! hahaha. yeah again. Coz one of my aunty has not watched it yet. (oh ya i bought the book too). The book more detailed though.. hehe

Watched movie, karaoke then had supper @ Swensen. It was a long queue. No pics to upload. Coz my camera low batt. Haha. Had forgotten to buy batteries. Too lazy.

Anyway it was fun.

Blog again need to clear my things now!

2008-12-29T00:23:00.002+08:00

Pass midnight, I feel far much better now. I m looking forward to meet them. Miss the crazy moments. I have think things through. Its true what she says. I am being unfair to myself. I must move on. Open my heart and let the light of love in. Then I feel better. If not, I wont be able to see things properly.

2008-12-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

I didnt need to go to a park to clear my mind. Chatting with Mavis and Kc make me feel better. I think I just get back to my old ways.. Just stick with what it used to be. Better. I will just continue what I had left behind. And finished all the unfinished business b4 I had went for my holiday.

2008-12-28T22:28:00.005+08:00

If only... I had followed the advise of my cousin.If only, I didnt follow my heart. If only...I ignored whatever I notice. If only...I had been fierce. If only... arghhhh! I m crushed!

2008-12-28T19:13:00.002+08:00

I m DEADMEAT! There goes my future. Quit school or quit work? I dunno!!! Faint! I am so confused. Abt my life, feelings etc.

My feelings are distorted now. yikes. dunno y. I scared to fall in love. Coz I scared to be hurt again.

2008-12-21T20:56:00.004+08:00

Was shocked to c him back in office. Yeah he came with our fren Faz. I was told he just came back from Dubai. Cool man being an air steward.. You can just fly around.
N tonight he is gg Jakarta. Wow. abt the year end party which was sucky this yr.. so boring.. AFt the lucky draw which ended ard 10pm or so, went to meet my parents.

Hmm for the photos .. I dun have the photos yet as I was too lazy to bring one. SO just waiting for them to send the photos to me.

Yesterday when shopping with my mom then meet my dad aft his work. From 9am till midnight.. Today when out with my parents again..

Shopping Pictures

2008-12-16T11:56:00.002+08:00

KL TRIP WIF LI NA AND CT.

12/12/08 - 14/12/08

1st DAY
I had taken leave on Friday and our bus depart from Boon Lay Shopping Centre at around 9am i think.

We reached KL around hmmm lets see 3pm i think.

It was a bad start. Reached immigration and we are stucked at the Msia Immigration. Coz there was a family from India in front of us. N they are causing us to be stucked behind them as they had to keep re writing their white card. How irritating it was.

Whole trip in the bus I was watching movie.. Watched the High School Musical 2 then sleep for a while ard 5 to 10 mins hahah. then watch a cartoon show. Tot of watching The Pirates of the Carribean but too bored to even watched.
Suppose to sleep but cant sleep. Wanna sms my uncle but scared disturb him. so i watched the movie.

2nd bad thing
Check in once reached but they told us another half an hour so we went A&W. But by the time we reached one and a half hour later. They say wait another half hour again. how frustrating. In the end they change room for us.

3rd bad thing
The toilet got choke and the water overflowed aft I flushed for the 3rd time.

Then we headed to Mid Valley Shopping Centre and met my uncle and aunty there. It has been a while since I last met them except for my uncle i just met my uncle recently @ Malacca la.. hahahah.

K they treat me n my frens to Kenny Rogers. How sweet of them.
Oh ya and my uncle is like keep bullying me.. heheheh. irritating him..

We didnt manage to shop finish Mid VAlley as too big.
so we headed home taking the KTM and monorail back. How adventurous it was.

SECOND DAY

We start the day @ 9am n end ard 9plus to 10.

We had roti canai as breakfast nearby our hotel.

Then took bus to Bukit Bintang. Yeah we went round n round asking ppl for wat bus to take.

We went to the PAvillion. Cool man.. It is a high end shopping centre. The two storey CoaCh caught our attn.. We spent most of our time @ Padini. My fav place to shop.. heheheeh.. I spent the most though.. heheh

Then we when bukit bintang n stuck there as was raining.. k tired of typing sia.. hahahah

@ nite was GREAT. I slept over @ my grandaunt place.@ nite they bring me ard the KL.
N i got a BEAR for myself

3rd DAY
Came back hotel n my frens were shocked i was holding a bear back.. wakaak.. no need to further elaborate. u noe i noe.

Anyway reached singapore finally.

Phew.. no mood sia to type.. hahahah.

K till then i update again.

2008-12-16T11:10:00.005+08:00

MALACCA TRIP

There was a wedding at malacca. And I had drive up to malacca. It was fun and a memorable one. Get to catch up with my cousins and family.

Here are some of the pictures :-

Me n my dear cuzzie n the COW .. haha

2008-12-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

Yeah I admit I was in Cloud 9 yesterday. But then I realise all of that means nothing. It was just play for fun. Joking. No seriousness or anything. haha.. least it kills my boredom. hahaha.

K nowadays too many events happening at one shot.. hmm..I will update the result.

Now tired no moood to update my kl trip hahaha..

But will update the memorable n enjoy moments together with my 2 dearies CT n Li Na.

Whatever happen doesnt meant to happen k gals.. so tt whole journey it was nothing n it meant nothing. It was pure playing games.

2008-12-14T08:56:00.004+08:00

Currently in KL for holiday with Ct n Mavis. Yeah!

But now I at my grandaunt house. Just pay her a visit since I m in KL whilst CT goes to meet her aunty.

Yesterday went to pasar malam. N the sweater I bought at Sungei Wang Plaza was cheaper at the pasar malam. wat the heck. hehee nvm.. onli RM2 diff.
My uncle got me a bear there! And seriously i was so so happy. Coz no one gives me a bear before. Except the ones my dad used to buy for me.. zzz
I dunno what to say, I have been wishing to get a bear as a gift / bdae present. I had since forgone the hope or wish to get a bear from someone.
As this uncle, I was told tt he loves buying ppl bear. So it might seems normal for him to buy it for me. But for me, I m thrilled! coz its not norm for me to get a bear hahahah even though it is a small bear. I will treasure the bear given. Thanks my dear uncle. He taking his masters soon. How cool is that. All the best for masters aite. Thank you mt aunty n uncle for treating us at Kenny Rogers aite.. ahhahae

Hmm i will update you all soon on my kl trip as I wanna put pics in too..

I wish for a positive 2009 and for gd start for school family n love life (winks)

2008-11-22T13:25:00.002+08:00

I've been wanting to change the blogskin but too lazy to do so.

Yesterday went to VivoCity to meet up Ct and mavis.Had asked Nad Taqi and Kc along.
But 3 of them unable to make it.

We ate at the Chicken Rice Shop. Yeah! Went home early last saturday, i went home late. So dont wan to keep gg home late.

Ok all i can say here is i bloody piss off and irritate by the remarks I heard.
If u think u r rich, there are someone richer than u.
If u think you are poor, there are some ppl who are poorer than u.
If u think you are busy then there is someone who is much busier than u.
If you think you are good then there is someone is better than u.
If u think you are sacrificing more, there will be others who sacificing more than u.

2008-11-09T15:45:00.004+08:00

~ Chai Lye's Wedding ~

Happily Married :) CL n wifey

GAL of DAC 01

2008-11-09T14:45:00.002+08:00

hey dere... didnt noe someone still reading this blog .. hahaha k penguin i will update k. n dont forget to tag so i noe u read.. hahahaha.

Had my exams ard end of oct n early nov. Its over finally.
So yest when to destress and watch movie with my cuzzie at Jusco Tebrau City Shopping Centre in JB.

I watched THE COFFIN movie.. not bad for a horror movie.

Now watching cartoon network while i m updating this blog.

N also searching more on Stomach Ulcer. How someone can have stomach ulcer? How we can diagnose and how crtitical it can be? hmm...the symptoms etc.

hmm till then when i m in mood to update.. oh yet to upload the photos during HAri raya n Chai Lye wedding.. happy waiting.. i will email u all once uploaded rite

2008-09-07T14:47:00.003+08:00

oh damn.. i forget his bdae dis yr!!! argghh... until maklung reminds me that she wanted me n my family to be free on sat nite.. ya to celebrate this fella bdae at Puteri Pan Pacific Hotel. Ok we had the Ramdhan Buffet last nite.. damn.. i hate buffets during fasting month.. As I m so not use to eating much during fasting month.. ok he brought his gf along. being the "sis" i was trying my best to entertain "my future cuz in law". ewwww..
k i must diarise that apr sep are my bros bdae .if not they will kill me.. lolz

anyway i dont wan to disturb the other fella at aussie.. he taking his HSC (in spore we call it A level i think, n in msia they called it STPM) .. so i dont wan him to get solded again.. so i better stay away for the moment or ...

forget it.. i dont wish to think..

talking abt STPM. i feel like calling my the other cuzzie who taking STPM. n ya... he always asked me to sms him.. ahahha.. he is such a joker..n when u call him, u can sense the excitement n happiness when he hears my voice. i m touched.. hahaha k i m crapping

K next week family gathering with dad's side..
then i will be planning to organise one for my mom side at my house.. YEs... as per normal there will be my fave food.. ROTI JALA.. thats a must.. n i will cook it.. except the curry my aunt/my mom will cook.. ahahahahah

till then..

2008-08-17T09:35:00.002+08:00

omg she cried. n my tudung (headress that is worn by the muslim) was wet.. hahahha.. i was onli guessing.. i didnt noe that i hit the bull's eyes.. hope she wont have nightmare anymore aft she let it out to me.. i m a gd listener u noe.. hahhaha.. n i gd at guessing aft observing the person reaction lol (like real)

Yesterday went in singapore.. there was a feast (kenduri nisfu syaaban) at my aunt house.. wow means there gonna be great food n i will be pumping more weight. hahhahaha. n it is.. i should have taken the pic of it. not sure y but i getting lazy to take pic. There was sushi, pizza kebab, kachang pool, nasi sambal goreng.

Aft reciting the prayers all that, we attack the foods.
Me n Kak Huda(my dad's cousin) take all the finger food. n our plates was filled.. oppzz ppl tot we were greedy. but in actual fact we were helping to take for the rest who is sitting in the room. hahah..

4 of us in the room n we keep on laughing at some lame jokes cracked by kak huda..
k2 while i inside i wonder wat was happening at the living room. my aunty was asking where was i. she couldnt c me as i was wearin the tudung. so look diff ah. hahaha.
my other small cuzzies naimah n munjiya was finding me too.. wow i so popular sia.. hahahhahahahahahh let me c, i mix well with them? so i m the fav kakak.. wakakkakka (omg)

As at times my grp of cuzzie (those same age) r rarely ard so i tend to mix with the younger ones. so makes me feel i m young too.. lol

While i m trying to enjoy this, i keep thinking of him. N during the praying and reciting some doa's, i keep praying for him in my heart. hope he will be protected always n he will be happy always..

I was talking to my mom. n she seems willing to have him part of the family. When he small it has been my mom who take care of him. n dad will be carrying him as he is lazy to walk.. lolz ( i was jealous man) wakakakka jks. but seriously now i leave everything to fate. coz i realise there is always reason y things happened.

2008-08-16T13:08:00.002+08:00

Life has been sucks lately.
If not for his comeback i will be worst than ever.
His return, lift up my spirit n cheer me up.
I read his blog.. I didnt expect him to write all that. seriously i m not gd in words.I dont even noe what to say. I have mixed emotions now. happy dissapointed n angry? I dont even noe wat to do next. It seems that all is up to fate.
But this is seriously unfair for us. i not gonna forgive the culprit who cause all this.. I will never ever. Omg there is hatred in me.. arghhhh!!

Friends
hmm yes i ve been super busy.. with work school family n stuffs. Thank God near 99% of them seems to understand.. but not too sure of the 1 per cent.. i try my best not too think too much abt it.. wat the heck.. frens come n come go.. i didnt noe wat had causes u to be angry or watever feeling u r feeling.. k i m sorry if i did anything wrong..
Saadiah dont expect too much from someone.. yesh i must keep reminding that aft all the shits that happen to me last yr.. the word bestfren seems a jinx to me.. i so not ever gonna used tt. i so not gonna say it out ur my bestfren or closefren..dont ever promise u want to be dere for me.. kc cl wenni they still dere even though they are busy with ns.. n they nvr promise me anything.. ct nad mavis they still ard

I miss times quarrelling with kc. Nevertheless he makes me smile too by his lame joke. Thanks for everything. He makes me cry, get agitated, laugh.. I lseriously miss those times we study together nisa jermin sabby n nad. N the times we hung ard wenni tq cl… omg I miss u all.. I view our class videos again n again coz I miss those moments..
cant wait for the kl trip .. yesh mavis i m fine with 12 dec.. u can apply for leave my dear

For my dear bro (cuzzie),
8 yrs was far too long. 8 days were not able to compensate the 8 yrs that we missed.
But I thank God, for giving me the chance to meet u again. I didnt even dreamt or thought that I was able to do all the things with u again. Even though it was for a short period, it was a memorable one. Hope these memories will last forever. I will always be your Kakak. I really enjoy the days we've had

2/8/2008 - 12/8/2008
It was an awkwad momemnt for us. I dont even noe wat to say or how to react. He seems reserved.. more to himself.. nvm it is the first day.. so dont expect him to loosen up too fast..
Yup second day we started talking a bit.
The next day had to go for work.. didnt get to spent much time with him.
Friday then, we start to talk a lot. which is a lot of talking.. watch movies eat dinner. shop all day long at jusco tebrau city...getting to noe him better. n i realise that he is mirror image of me.. attitude character. most of it.. hahah.. so i guess i noe how he feels? hahahahh. he seems not to change a bit since small. but for sure there are some changes due to where he grew up..
TT nite another cuzzie of mine came down.. yeah didnt do anything much.

Sat was my kenduri (house warming). yeah i was bit pissed off at the start.. dunno i think lack of sleep has caused the moodswing.. ahahah.. at nite. me n the rest of the cuzzies cramp in the car n went to danga bay.. it was a fabulous nite. but i notice he wasnt happy.. seems he is thinking too much abt something.

Sunday was the last day we spent together.. I wanted to stay up with him that nite. but i was too caught up with my pjt.. n i can see that he seems tired that i cant bear to wake him up..

Monday morning we went our separate ways again. Thanks for the hug.. didnt expect that.. i found the missing piece of my heart.
Aft all these yrs. thanks for returning.. u may not be able to make me laugh.. but u are the confidante of my life that make my life more worthwhile to live on. U r significant in my live and in the family. Remember you will always have us..
We may be two diff countries apart. But that shouldnt stop us to be close at heart.

U always be missed. hey do give me a ring... if u feel like talking (but seems like u wont) hahahaha

2008-08-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

30 July 2008
it was excruciating pain. it may due to food poisoning or due to my normal stomach pain but now it just gets worst..hmmmm. But i cant think of wat that have caused the severe pain. Despite that i m still at werk.. at night went to visit doctor

31 July 2008 n 1 August 2008
on mc

2 August
Even though still in pain, i agreed to drive up to malacca. haha crazy me.
tt nite finally got to c him aft 8 yrs

k sleepy to be continued

2008-07-26T12:06:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out with 2 clowns haha.. 2 of my colleagues.. they bring me to some ulu place at Sunset Way.. just to bring me to eat ice-cream that they claimed it is nice. wow the place is nice.. The ice cream not bad.. we ate brownie with minty mint... n waffle with caramel something.. both flavour i love it coz both i choose ah.. then we order 2 scoop of ice cream.. avocado another flavour peach.. not so nice.

Aft that we head to bukit timah to play pool... coz i wanna play pool.. as i miss the old times playing pool with my poly mates.

They accompany me wherever i wanna go. i feel so pampered like in poly days.. wakkkakkkakakakaka.. every friday we have been gg out together lately.. but next fri jg got class.. ZZZzzzZZ.. then tot of other days but mon - wed i got class. thurs got boxercise class then fri is the onli day i free.

Supposedly this sunday both of them coming down jb.. but nws cannot make it.. ZZzzzZ last minute got something on... nvm then

i receive gd news that he coming down to msia this coming august.. n will be staying till the kenduri on 9 aug.. wow aft 8 yrs.. finally seeing him again.. k i need to take leave to bring him ard.. it is not like always i can be with him like when we were litle kids.

Next yr will be my turn to come down aussie to c him then.. must save up.. hahahaha..

ppl come n go. so i just have to accept the fact.. zzzzz cant be bothered..

2008-07-20T14:23:00.003+08:00

K went shopping with my cuzzie at the Jusco Tebrau city at JB.. hmm ok.. i wanted to take neoprint with her. n i was shocked..coz the way they operate.. is totally different.. i cant even slot coins in the coin slot..as it was sealed. so i ask the lady, then she told me need to pay RM30.. i was stunned.. taking neoprint in spore is like far far far much cheaper n easier.but now i wondering is RM30 for all the machines or one.. zzzzzzz.. so end up taking our pictures using our phones.. ewakakakakak the things at the Jusco Tebrau City is EX.. coz mostly are boutiques.. k i only bought a NoVEL. been so long since i lastread a malay novel..for now.. maybe should ask my cuzzie from aussie to courier some of his books like stephen king or harry porter.. wkakak.. wow.. gd gd.. hahah.. k now i m HOME ALONE. lazy to go out.. yest slept at 12midnight.

Supposedly to watch movie with my cuzzie at city square today but my mom told me to follow her go somewhere.. in the end both i nvr go.. i stay at home n print my lecture notes.. zzzz n now i m out of paper..

oh ya since i started work i rarely go kitchen n prepare some dish.. miss the touch of cooking.. so basically i cook a sweet n sour hotdog.. ate some in the morning.. by the time i come back from school yest, the dish is gone.. FINISHED liao!!. sob sob.. i onli get to taste a bit..

till now i still rmb the advice u gave me.. the core ingredient of the dish is onion n garlic.. hahaha.

miss baking too.. if now i bake cookies, the cookies will be burnt. lolzz.

k my lappy is hot liao.. gtg.. till i update again

2008-07-12T10:25:00.002+08:00

wow.. look at my entry .. there was like ages ago since i updated. k too busy.. seriously.. so long didnt get to do things i wanna do.. if i do also i will be rushing.

hmmm.. i think 2 or 3 days before my bdae.. it was a saturday.. met the gals, ct, li na, ijah n linda... k we went to eat to sakura international buffet.. damn i was very hungry when i reached dere as for lunch i had to share with my cuzzie.. coz my parents tot he not coming over.. so onli bought for me.. since he had helped out.. so let him share food with me.. that was our breakfast n lunch..

then busy shopping for furniture.. my mom told me to buy a set of furniture for my room.. zzzz.. i wan a single bed but she told me buy queen bed.. zzzzz... bought a comp table cum study table.. but i cant use the comp now as i lost some wire.. wakkaa.. so using my lappy
hunt for internet that day.. finally settled for one. at least i can contact my fwens through internet.. heee

hmmmm... k last friday the malay gerls plan for my bdae celebration together with ijah.. k got a chocolate facial.. my yellow shirt got chocs stain.. as if i shit.. lolzz..thanks babes for the celebration n prezzie.

i love the salvatore feragamo perfume.. love it.. smell nice dude.. appreciate it..

oh ya on my bdae i took leave.. celebrate it with kc n wenni.. ya watched you dont mess with zohan with wenni n left kc who is late.. lolzz... he was 15 mins late to inform us that he will be release early.. we ate at swensen .. so got a firehouse, bdae song n a pic of me kc n wenni which i dunno i put where.. lolz.

k last sunday went to meet garfield.. so long nvr meet him though.. actually dont feel like gg out that day.. n stay home. but since i so long nvr meet him n my parents wanna go some wedding reception.. so just follow them .. then meet garfield.
went to eat fig n olive.. ok la not bad.. first time i went there to eat.. but service a bit slow la.. hmm k aft that we went to watch movie hancock..not bad the show....

k i m trying to adapt to changes first.. then ask my cuzzie to bring ard wher to shop2.. but have to wait for big bro. he forever werking.. as he werking shift.. everytime come down his house he will not be around sianz.z... k i wanna plan for a runaway........... every weekend i can just drive up to kl or malacca (like as if i have time) wow it will be great.. can meet my cuzzie in malacca .. woo hoo.. with my cuzzies of coz.. as then my dad will allow me.. woo hoo.. if onli fahmi oso in msia or spore...

this is random post sia.. i just type wat comes frm my mind.

hmm i wondering wat happen to fahmi or should i call him MOE now.. hehehe.. oh ya he is my cuzzie.. long lost cuzzzie.. finally found him aft 8 yrs.. long story... lolzz..

k til then i update in 2 months time.. wakakkakakakaka

2008-05-24T11:40:00.003+08:00

k finally i changed my blog backgrd.. still in progress.. too lazy to improvise it.
at least a new look for my blog.. wakakaka..

Omg.. that was the first time we witness it.. It seems a bit scary.. i am aware of it keadaan seperti bertambah rumit. Watever happen last night was scary..

2008-05-22T22:24:00.003+08:00

Wat the heck.. my partner came for the performance.. k i didnt dare to c the audience..
so so paisey.. yeah saw him when we all were singing.. wakakak.. i think he was shocked.. as i didnt even inform him that i m involve.. weee
everything went fine yest.

Yesh i miss my cuzzie.. dunno when i wanna take leave n meet him.. so difficult he studying i werking.. n we are situated in 2 diff countries. we miss the old times

k i anyhow put the video lazy to adjust.. wakakak
latest song usher - moving mountain

2008-05-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

21st May 2008 - SOC QTRLY MEETING.
My dept is doing sing n dance item.
So we are dancing. N i m "fortunately" involved in.
They choose an Indian (Hindi) song for the song.
Man, lots of shaking the bon bon.. waakakakka.. so paisey sia like that..

Thank God my partner n team leader dun wanna come.. heee. at least less paisey

k my dad asking me to sleep lolzzz

Nitey nitez

2008-05-04T14:56:00.002+08:00

Oh mine.. aft 2 weeks, back to work tmr.. Vesak DAy go Malacca yeah.. heehe.. lucky its malacca.. but for Australia i think i need to starve myself first. .hehehehe
wat is the cheapest airline to sydney?

damn its may.. 1 more month.. nahs.. no intention to take leave on my bdae. waste of time ah.. ehhee.. better just werk.. hhehehehe

k till then. i will update soon.

2008-04-29T17:33:00.002+08:00

My Search has ended.. everything is complete. ade hikmah disebalik ape yang berlaku. For nearly 8 yrs, 8 yrs.. Finally.. Biggest Responsibility has been wipe out..

2008-04-28T20:21:00.002+08:00

haiyo.. Exam week seems so sianz... but yest was the peak of my exam week.. Just came back spore.. Had to rush to bring him to hospital.. Irritating .. 3rd time sia in a mth.. doesnt he value life.. wah piang.. can he dont create trouble.. attention seeker.. arggh.. we so worried n yet he add to the prob.. sia la.. lucky no speed camera.. i speed my way from nuh to arab street then to alexandra hospital.. y cant his frens just call the ambulanace.. bunch of troublemakers.. get a life sia.. waste parents money.. haizzz.... lucky wasnt badly hurt as the second accident.

I lose my concentraion to study sia.. haiz.. dunno how he is gg to be now.. was re admitted to nuh.. haiz.. i can still remember the moment he grabbed my hand n told me to pray for him.C ing him cry make me more sad.. so scared sia.. haiz.. one accident one in hospital.... arghh.. no mood to study sia.. nothing can get in my mind now.. tmr my FA paper.. all the best ah

2008-04-06T09:09:00.002+08:00

ooohh.. i didnt noe there is still someone reading my blog.. lol.. k bro.. i will update.. wow.. my last update was in feb.. n now is APRIL!!!!!... too busy.. lots of things happen.. too many to even list it out.. k i will just type wat i feel like typing.

Yesterday went for a karaoke from 4pm to 8pm. and had dinner at swensen dhoby..
with linda ijah kc. hahaha.. kc chose weird weird old songs.. such as the carpenter song.. lol.. lucky i noe how to sing..lol...

Last sat had a shopping therapy with ct mavis n rosey.. woo hoo.. we shop for the whole day. we met at 1pm. have our lunch then we shop non stop till 10pm or 9 plus ... wakakaka.. the leg was aching.. Nevertheless i enjoyed.

Thanks guys..

Oh ya.. last fri met ct.. thanks ct for accompanying me.. we shall meet again.. hehehe

kk22 need to do pjt liao.. i will update la if i feel like it..

Photos

2008-02-23T10:24:00.001+08:00

Photobucket Album

2008-02-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

tears streaming down his cheek.. she unable to know what he is feeling. He just lay still dere n staring blankly at her. She no longer able to hear the words of wisdom or encouragement frm him. He lost his ability to speak. He cant even move an inch.. Wires tubes seems to stuck everywher. He cant eat even anything. onli fluids.

She wasnt aware wat had happened n was last to noe abt it.. it seems was like just yest she saw him standing infront of her give a pat on her shoulder. but now he cant seem to even recognize her... She cant even do anything abt it...She feel so useless. What should she do? Nothing seems right..

Looking at him just make her even sad.. She tried to stop the tears.. but it just keep flowing.. She kept thinking... Y? She was just abt to get up again n she falls in again.. How she wishes that she can stop everything frm happening.. But this is wat they say fate or just parts n parcel of life... She just has to be strong n face it... Hope she wont tumble again.. Responsibility that she has to take up require sacrifices to be made.. Will she be emotional n physically stable 4 it? Or will she just lose in this battle?

She is totally exhausted physically n emotionally but she just has to fight on.Sometimes some issues doesnt seems to be wat it is.. hmmmm...

Will he have the chance to c her in the position that he hopes she will become?
Has she made him proud so far? Why do things have to end up this way?

Cherish yr loved ones b4 u lose them..

2008-01-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

Wah.. it seems like ages that i last blog.. ehhehehee...
HAppy New Year 2008 n Happy advance chinese new yr..
Last Fri that kuku POP.. like finally.. hahah.. n wenni pass his class 3 license... hehehe.. wat the heck i just noe that wenni was posted to sembawang camp.. hahah... near my house sia
ok.. random post la.. went countdown with my cuzzies.. actualli my aunties ah.. ahahha.. fun n fun....
cant recall wat happen in jan.. but seems lots lots lots... make me preoccupied..

k i tired liao.. just came back frm jb.. get my sleep

nitey nites

2007-12-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. Yest went out with my IB mates, jermin nisa kc sabby, n sabby bf.. we watched alvin n the chipmunks haah.. funny sia.. so cute.. oh ya we went dinner at the same place that we had the last time we met. onli that the diff yest got kc n sabby bf

Today went ikea to shop2 for new stuffs for my house.. sianz.. i dunno how to decorate my room.. but the impt thing that i bought was a frame.. hehehe.. I making a collage.. so i can put in my room n keep thinking abt the gd memories we had.. I will post it once i m done with the collage. b4 i finish my collage i notice that someone photo keep appearing coz in most photos he is in.. lol..

K till then.. happy listening to the chipmunks song lol.. (kc gonna be irritated by the song) lol

2007-12-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

Lautan Yang Berapi
Daratan Yang Berduri
Bagiku Bukan Musibah
Malahan Hikmah Berharga

Katalah Apa Saja
Yang Jelik Penuh Dusta
Kau Bebas Warnai Diriku
Di Minda Yang Kelabu

Siapa Diri Ini
Tuhan Yang Memahami
Amarah Dan Kecewa
Hanyalah Bara Membakar Jiwa

Sungguh Pun Ku Terkilan
Terguris Perasaan
Ku Pilih Berdiam Diri
Tanpa Dendam Dihati

(Song Lyric: Ct Nurhaliza)

2007-12-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. Today was so funny.. My officer n my colleague n me keep on laughing since lunch.. It has been a while since I laughed a lot till I feel that as if i getting asthma sia.. lol.. Poor jg we were making fun of him n his gf.. lol.. BOn bon.. wat a word... lol

Yey tomolo meeting the IB members.

Last sat had went to Linda's engagement.. It was fun.. WEnni came... aft much persuasion from me n tq.. Linda was shocked.. can c she is happy.. thats the least i can do to make her be happy on her big day mah? When i c ppl happy i m happy too..

Planning for a holiday trip soon with my relative.. Wow so fun sia... CAnt wait.. hope will be able to make it la.. Looking fwd for a better 2008.. 2007 is damn miserable and shitty yr coz everything happen at once.

Everything is going smoothly as planned by me.. hehehehehe..

Some pics update by me.. HAppy viewing.. Linda's engagement pic

2007-12-08T08:20:00.000+08:00

Another day... A very refreshing morning..
My dad had wanted me to follow them to JB but I m just super tired as need to wake up at ard 5 am.. I understand he dun wan me to be alone as I will be thinking a lot n he seems to noe wat his daughter is gg through. So he wants me to tag along n also understand the road way at JB.

Back at werk... Had requested for half an hour early to go home. As had to rush for my enrolment at RMIT-SIM. When I went there ppl tot I am the current student there. As one lady approach me n asked me the venue n I say, i m also looking for that venue.. She was shocked I not a current student.. lol.. May be prob coz I was wearing jeans n sweater n additional to that was eating lolly pop.. lol.. no Potential look like a working adult.. wakakakakakakak...
Guess who I saw there..KHARUNISA (khai from 02 not u nisa(04)hehhee.. wah best.. got someone familiar.. thats way so cool!!!! happy2

Good things are slowly coming back... yeaa2...

Meeting ranting cant wait to c her.. We onli managed to sms n talk over the phone onli. AS now her exams over we can meet again!!!!! yeah2!

Next Week meeting the DAIdees gang.. lol it my dearis DAC classmates. Oh ya it is gg to be linda's engagement. N linda sms yest to remind us. then she told me to inform CL as she didnt have her no. N I m so cleveer i just forward directly to CL.. Didnt even state it is linda's engagement.. ahhaa.. CL was shocked to death abt it.. Theres not even news abt me dating or having a bf then suddenly engaged.. If i were him, i will also be shocked..
CL called just to asked some place at JB.. lol..Anything related to JB he always asked me.. hehehehe.. N we just managed to talk for a while.

Wenni POP 12 Dec.. N KC is later JAn.. N he is dreading abt it..eheehheh.

Aft linda's engagement meeting my IB mates.. Hope to meet them..
Meeting my sec dearies?? hmm... must try to let the SLAN to meet up again..
If i meet milo peng. there's no nutty n penguin.
then if meet shikz. the other 2 also dont have
For me n nutty, we always coincidently met ard our estate.. But now rarely. As she werking shift n me office hrs..
Tot of SLumber party.. lol as per discuss during our hari raya meet up.. hmm will c abt it.. eheheheh

On the 15 DEc is LT big day. yeah from linda's engaement rush to LT wedding dinner. I tink should be ard 7pm or 7.30pm.. Wah from Bedok to Orchard.. hmmm should be noe rush ah.. ehehehhehe

K till i Blog again
SSMS

2007-12-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

Last Friday had went out with NAd n we had like sharing session like always.. lol..
Seems normal.. Yeah we walked from Orchard all the way to City HAll. We laughed we talked laughed n talked till we super thirsty once we reached City Hall. Out of breathe sia.. lol..Guess who we met? We saw XUE LI!! Outside the Centrepoint.. we were surprised to c each other.. nice to have met her.... We were like practically standing in the middle of shopping centre n talk.. lol.. that shows how much we seriously missed our classmates badly.. lol. BOTH of u made my day sia..

As we were giggling n talking, someone sis approached us.. I was just walking like nobody biz.. yeah we were shocked to c her though.. lol..

N for today met that kuku n jess. We went Swensen to celebrate Jess Advance Bdae...
Watched Enchanted.. the Show was damn funny n nice.. Should watch it man!!!!!

Being hurt by a fren is not as hurtful as being hurt by a bestfren (hmmm isit so?)

2007-11-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

yikes!! someone is chewing back on her words lol.. last time die die wanna be with the person she loves.. but now with the person who seems to love her more.. hahaha.. dunno wat to say..

hmm.... someone matchmake u to her fren then at the end of the day she herself end up with that person.. lol.. tats wat they say fate mah.. hehehehhe....

k i getting evil sia now.. who cares la.. my heart is like a stone alr lor.. too hard liao.. i m suppose to have no emotionss.... ..

I dont care of the consequences now.. n i dont give a damn.. I just wanna have fun n be happy with wats left.. yeah everything will be fine but not normal..

Sometimes i sit back n think, must i asked each n every single qn to a fren..i feel that i m a reporter sia if i keep asking.... i tot as frens we share things.. but dunno ah.. sometimes ppl just dun wish to share.. so cant force.. so cant blame them too rite? so start frm now i wont wanna asked.. n i dun expect u to share too..
Like some sayings that some ppl are introvert n some are extrovert.. hmmm.. dunno leh.. k i talking crap sia...

hmm i seems to enjoy work more now. I love my team.. it is great that we have buddy system.. for 2 consecutive days.. we have lunch at harbour front..sianz now.. eheheh it is more fun @ werk.. heheehhe..

Sabby nis jer.. miss u alll. i wanna meet with u all leh.. k nis just asked me out for next weekend.. k i tink i can make it.. coz i make u all priority.. but of coz my parents comes first la..lol..

if someone not my priority, i will make myself busy la.. lol..

For my class no need to plan anything.. coz every mth seems like got event.. bdae chalets. coming up is linda's engagement day.. hope to c u all sia.. everytime we meet is full of funs n laughter.. yeah.. keep it up...lol

Wenni msg me.. hahaaha.. he POP soon. i think 12 dec ah.. poor him sia. nearly one month he in camp.. coz got outfield i think ah.. lol thats y he so long nvr sms sia.... i m like persuading him to come linda engagement as he didnt turn up for ee ling n rose bdae.. n i m sure u all miss him n would like to c his botak head.. lol..

anyway I like my new short hair.. heeheeheeheh...

2007-11-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

Wow..lets make it a random post it is like so long since I last update.. LOts of events happened wher do I start.. hmmm.. anyway yest. suppposedly meet up with nis they all.. but it was kinda last min.. then cancelled.. Finally last min me n nad met up at vivo.. ATe at swensen.. sia la.. it was bloody expensive sia.. hehehe... no way i gg there again except for special day i guess.. heheh..

Yest. was finally i came back to work. I onli come to office 2 days in the week. eheh
MOn n Fri.. haha... went for 2 days course.. Feels kinda weird to come back to office aft 3 days break (2 days course plus public hol) Yest was also my company house warming/opening ceemony at the new office.. so we had LUNCH BUFFETT.. free food heheeh...

Hmm wat else happen ah.. oh ya last sat was rosey's bdae.. yeah met up with the rest.. was fun fun fun.. nice catching up with u all.. hahah..

met with ina during my 2 days course n had a heart to heart talk.. lol.. u asked me whether to accept haikal or not.. actualli is up to u.... I dunno how to advise anymore.. seriously i m sincerely saying u should give a chance to hyrul.. but if u seriously dun love him coz u love haikal then up to u.. i dunno wat to say anymore.. I think yani is able to advise u on that dat.. not me.. :)

Oh ya had went to my dad class reunion with his buddies frm pre U.. wow it was SOOOOOOO damn fun sia.. how i wish that our class can keep in touch till we old n our sons n daughters will get to noe each other..ssO cool rite..
Their reunion was held at malacca.. As they want to have the atmosphere hari raya at kampong..heheheheh.. Went there n had able to keep my mind in peace.. HOw i wish i can stay at kampong longer.. nvm i back to this busy city again.. hehheee..

When hari raya with my sec frens onli 4 of us.. n i was late.. lol... got lots of things to settle at work.. n had to rush aft werk to meet them as it was fri nite.. but it was fun to do catch up with them.. n got to noe updates who got married liao n who r getting married soon.. eheheheh

ps: BAbes n Dudes all photos can be viewed through the photobucket link i send to u all.. if u dun remember the password can just asked me..

2007-10-20T09:00:00.001+08:00

You Are 40% Girly

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2007-10-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

What a tragedy.. yeah my cuzzie msg me to inform that my uncle involves in an accident.. I tot that he was gonna be find. but was informed that he had passed away in the ops theatre.
N today he made the headline. So sad.. it is few days b4 raye.. anyway this uncle of mine is just 19 yrs old.. so young.. haiz..

Let's put that aside. Hmm Went out with ranting n yati to geylang to collect my baju kurung. hehe. it was so sweet of them to accompany me there. oh ya thanks for the talk ranting. as normal both of us always have some discussion at the mrt platform.. lol. thanks for that i need it..
Day went fine.. yati talks abt her attachment at hospital. it was nice sitting n sharing abt our work. 3 diff work life. In bank, hospital n lab.. hehehehe.. Life feels much better this way.

Oh ya KC went NS yesterday.. it was like FINALLY lol...

On the 27th October, Ee Ling's Bdae n also the DAC Malay plan to go out.. if i not wrong the 02 girls n other peeps from dac.. tq is gg too.. aiyo miss sia.. cannot join them. but i cant go for both as I have to celebrate hari raya at kampong.. Need a break frm city life... heheh.

Suddenly i missing lots of ppl.. esp my beloved DAC classmates n m dearie IB members.. not forgetting SLAN.. my cuzzies.. thinking of u all make me smile n noe that u guys are still dere.

hati pasrah.. meniti hari dengan perasaan yg hiba.. kekecewaan teramat dirasai hingga menusuk ke kalbu.. namun inilah roda2 kehidupan yg harus di tempuhi. . Hanya masa dapat menilai segala apa yg terjadi
(Expectation is the root of all heartache)

2007-09-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

Waste my time to even thing of it.. Now I am drowning myself with work2 work2.. Keep gg back late. Tomolo still coming down to work..

Anyway KC bdae.. It is good to hear that he felt touched with the gifts. lol..

ok blog soon

too tired liao

2007-09-23T14:34:00.000+08:00

I dunno wat to say. I dunno how to say and i dunno how i am suppose to feel n i dunno how to react n i dunno wat to do. I dunno whether it is appropriate to feel this way. I dunno y i feel so hurt.. n i dunno y i feel angry.. i dunno that i just feel that i wan to end how i feel.. I i dunno y but i just feel that i feel so shit. I dunno y i feel i wanna vanish. I just wan to start afresh. oh dammit.. how do u feel when someone u like is telling u he likes yr argh!!!!!. asking u to help him to woo her. I was so irrational to ask her to be with him. All i wan is for her to be happy. but i dunno wat i m trying to do.
I feel so shit. Shit as i am feeling this way. Shit coz there is anger in me now. I am angry with i dunnno wat.... N i angry for wat happen.Thank God i didnt fell in love with him. I onli like him n I was just trying to open up aft 5 yrs.. lol.. I dunno whether i can still open up. haizzzz
U were rite dere.. hehe.. lucky i take that as caution.
Yr 2007 is sucks.

2007-09-16T15:19:00.000+08:00

For now i think i will settle with this backgrd ah..

Still searching for a better piece.

Anyway.. today have to break fast at my paternal grandparents house.

And all the cuzzies same age as me will not be ard... Only the younger ones, the small kids will be

ard. Nvm its still ok.. hehe.

Kc bdae is next week. N i haven got time to buy him anything on behalf of the rest. Been busy

lately not only with werk. Wat else to buy for him ah. I have no idea now.. hehehe..

Ok lots of events happen lately.. Been lazy to update. hehe..

Start of fasting was on thursday.. This yr Raya my family choose to wear pink. Out of all colours.

I used to hate pinks.. But now slowly trying to like pink.. hheheheheh.. N coincidently i got a

pink watch this yr.. can match the baju kurung then.. eheheheehh wat else..

k till then.

2007-09-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

i m so sleepy now.. anyway that will be the first n the last.. wat was i thinking anyway.. omg saadiah... haha.. i m full.. ate sakura buffet just now with my colleagues.. manager treat us.. hehe
till then.. i must overwork myself now..... ahahahaa....

2007-09-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. time flies man.. I felt that it was just yesterday I had graduated. I miss my classmates badly. But how to meet them? Who to plan? Chalet end of the yr?? But a bit troublesome. Chalet again?? just had a chalet this yr.. maybe next yr can... Dont worry.. this September will we meet up.. just wait n c.. hehehe...hmm.. i think we all meet up for dinner.. errrr.. throw some suggestions.. or we go holidays together.. hahahahaha.. BATAM?

dunno la.. past few mths no mood to plan anything..
Hari RAya coming.. FAsting month..... going to be busy..

k tata for now

2007-08-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to meet up with sabby jer n nis.
I drove yesterday.. haha.. finally my dad allowed me to drive around without him by my side. We had all went to Marina Square for dinner at Pizza Hut.
Chit Chat session n we talk about everything. Current updates and future. hehe.. I was late to send my mom to work that night. N got nag by her. heheh..
It was my mistake.. Didnt turn to Nicoll Highway. Went to drive straight and we end up at Serangoon Road. Thanks to my tele Street Directory who helped me to find my way..eheh.. which is azrinah..hehe..

As for today, I had went Azrinah house. N her dad told me, if got lost dont feel shy to call ina, so ina can ask him for help. yeah it was so nice of him hehehe..
When to collect my altered pants at Jurong Point just now.

N now her I am doing update to my blog. hehe.. k been wanting to update but no time leh.. heheh.. lets make this entry a random post.

Oh ya, I had quit Microsoft. Currently working in "the world's local bank" hhehehe. which is HSBC.. it is a perm job. Thats why I grab it.. By I miss XBOX at Microsoft and the refrigerator full of canned drinks.. haiz...... Nvm life has to go on.. eheheehehe

Till then tata :P

2007-08-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

Now I dont feel like giving the baby taz. It is like not worth it. It hurts badly now. I think the baby taz will be with me for mths.. or better I give to my cuzzie instead as it is his bdae next mth. Confirm wouldnt wan the gift, so it is better off I give some other ppl. Then I should return the gift u gave to me, to u back.. Fair isnt it? Or once n for all, aft give u the gift, we just stay away frm each other. Let it be like last time. When we were not even close to even friends. Just an acquitance. Ok it is crap! I dunno wat I am typing...

2007-08-07T17:29:00.000+08:00

JANUARY
* Ambitious and serious
* Loves to teach and be taught
* Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
* Likes to criticize
* Hardworking and productive
* Smart, neat and organized
* Sensitive and has deep thoughts
* Knows how to make others happy
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Rather reserved
* Highly attentive
* Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
* Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
* Loves children
* Homely person
* Loyal
* Needs to improve social abilities
* Easily jealous

FEBRUARY
* Abstract thoughts
* Loves reality and abstract
* Intelligent and clever
* Changing personality
* Temperamental
* Quiet, shy and humble
* Low self esteem
* Honest and loyal
* Determined to reach goals
* Loves freedom
* Rebellious when restricted
* Loves aggressiveness
* Too sensitive and easily hurt
* Showing anger easily
* Dislike unnecessary things
* Loves making friends but rarely shows it
* Daring and stubborn
* Ambitious
* Realizing dreams and hopes
* Sharp
* Loves entertainment and leisure
* Romantic on the inside not outside

MARCH
* Attractive personality
* Affectionate
* Shy and reserved
* Secretive
* Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
* Loves peace and serenity
* Sensitive to others
* Loves to serve others
* Not easily angered
* Trustworthy
* Appreciative and returns kindness
* Observant and assess others
* Revengeful
* Loves to dream and fantasize
* Loves traveling
* Loves attention
* Loves home decors
* Musically talented
* Loves special things
* Moody

APRIL
* Active and dynamic
* Decisive and hateful but tends to regret
* Attractive and affectionate to oneself
* Strong mentality
* Loves attention
* Diplomatic
* Consoling
* Friendly and solves people's problems
* Brave and fearless
* Adventurous
* Loving and caring
* Suave and generous
* Emotional
* Revengeful
* Aggressive
* Hasty
* Good memory
* Moving
* Motivate oneself and the others
* Sickness usually of the head and chest
* Easily get too jealous

MAY
* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* Strong-willed and highly motivated
* Sharp thoughts
* Easily angered
* Attracts others and loves attention
* Deep feelings
* Beautiful physically and mentally
* Firm standpoint
* Easily influenced
* Needs no motivation
* Easily consoled
* Systematic (left brain)
* Loves to dream
* Strong clairvoyance
* Understanding
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck
* Good imagination
* Good debating skills
* Good physical
* Weak breathing
* Loves literature and the arts
* ! Loves traveling
* High spirited
* Spendthrift

JULY
* Fun to be with
* Secretive
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Takes pride in oneself
* Has reputation
* Easily consoled
* Honest
* Concern about people's feelings
* Tactful
* Friendly
* Approachable
* Very emotional
* Temperamental and unpredictable
* Moody and easily hurt
* Witty and sarky
* Sentimental
* Not revengeful
* Forgiving but never forgets
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
* Guides others physically and mentally
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
* Wary and sharp
* Judge people through observations
* Hardworking

AUGUST
* Loves to joke
* Attractive
* Suave and caring
* Brave and fearless
* Firm and has leadership qualities
* Knows how to console others
* Too generous and egoistic
* Takes high pride of oneself
* Thirsty for praises
* Extraordinary spirit
* Easily angered
* Angry when provoked
* Easily jealous
* Observant
* Careful and cautious
* Thinks quickly
* Independent thoughts
* Loves to lead and to be led
* Loves to dream
* Talented in the arts, music and defense
* Sensitive but not petty
* Poo! r resistance against illnesses
* Loving and caring
* Loves to make friends

SEPTEMBER
* Suave and compromising
* Careful, cautious and organized
* Likes to point out people's mistakes
* Likes to criticize
* Quiet but able to talk well
* Calm and cool
* Kind and sympathetic
* Concerned and detailed
* Trustworthy, loyal and honest
* Does work well
* Sensitive
* Thinking
* Good memory
* Clever and knowledgeable
* Loves to look for information
* Must control oneself when criticizing
* Able to motivate oneself
* Understanding
* Secretive
* Loves sports, leisure and traveling
* Hardly shows emotions
* Tends to bottle up feelings

OCTOBER
* Loves to chat
* Loves those who loves him
* Loves to takes things at the centre
* Attractive and suave
* Inner and physical beauty
* Does not lie or pretend
* Sympathetic
* Treats friends importantly
* Always making friends
* Easily hur! t but recovers easily
* Bad tempered
* Selfish
* Seldom helps unless asked
* Daydreamer
* Very opinionated
* Does not care of what others think
* Emotional
* Decisive
* Strong clairvoyance
* Loves to travel, the arts and literature
* Soft-spoken, loving and caring

* Romantic
* Touchy and easily jealous
* Spendthrift and easily influenced
* Easily lose confidence

NOVEMBER
* Has a lot of ideas
* Difficult to fathom
* Thinks forward
* Unique and brilliant
* Extraordinary ideas
* Sharp thinking
* Fine and strong clairvoyance
* Can become good doctors
* Careful and cautious
* Dynamic in personality
* Secretive
* Inquisitive
* Knows how to dig secrets
* Always thinking
* Less talkative but amiable
* Brave and generous
* Patient
* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* If there is a will, there is a way
* Determined
* Never give up
* Hardly become angry unless provoked
* Motivates oneself
* Does not appreciates praises
* High-spirited
* Well-built and tough
* Deep love

DECEMBER
* Loyal and generous
* Patriotic
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Ambitious
* Influential in organizations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialize
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
* Logic

2007-08-07T17:27:00.000+08:00

June Babies

* Thinks far with vision
* Easily influenced by kindness
* Polite and soft-spoken
* Having lots of ideas
* Sensitive
* Active mind
* Hesitating
* Tends to delay
* Choosy and always wants the best
* Temperamental
* Funny and humorous
* Loves to joke
* Good debating skills
* Talkative
* Daydreamer
* Friendly
* Knows how to make friends
* Abiding
* Able to show character
* Easily hurt
* Prone to getting colds
* Loves to dress up
* Takes time to recover when hurt
* Brand conscious
* Executive
* Stubborn
* Those who loves me are enemies

ehhehe it seems a bit true for some of it kekekee

2007-07-18T18:00:00.000+08:00

I m so so tired to even update my blog.
Had not been a good week.
Still deprieve of rest n sleep.
Been worried.
Haiz..
But wat can I say, thanks for coming down on last friday ya.
Didnt expect you all to pay a visit.
Thanks2 (nis nadz sabby kc jess)
Esp to that kuku and and my bestie la as they were dere ever since thursday.
Hear all out from me.
Keep calling or sms me to check i m fine
didnt noe kc will be so concern.. hehehe. thats wat frens are for he says.. ya true.. :)
anyway we all admit that jess was super super irritatiting on that friday.
N i dunno how he can tolerate her nonsense.
He even whisper to me"Eh yr fren getting worst sia" lol

till then need to rush to hospital to c the scan results

2007-07-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

2007-07-03T10:06:00.000+08:00

Back from the kl trip. Anyway it wasnt a holiday trip. Had to come down kl for a relative wedding.

We both finally meet up. I intended not to meet. But he was willing to come over to sembawang even though he was tired as he just book out. Can see from the face he was damn shagged and on saturday morning he has duty in the morning. I didnt force him to come. He insisted on coming. Furthermore azmi n azrinah cant make it. So i thought we bett3r meet some other time. I lazy to meet also as i knock out late frm werk.

We chatted like old days for nearly 1hour at Coffee Bean until CL called. I know he dont like Coffee Bean. Aiya who cares I cant think of better place to sit n talk at Sun Plaza.

I still remember everything clearly. N he still remember everything. Every word I said. N wat happen to both of us?.. I dunno. Both of us didnt discuss abt the matter anymore. Nearly 2 yrs we part. We didnt meet, we didnt talk over the phone, didnt chat online. Lost contact just like that.

That friday nite CL called me hhaha.. funny sia him. He also like wen qiang. more vulgar. wat the heck. He say calling to check how's everybody.. so funny.. lol..

On sat morning drove our way to Malacca. Once reached the expressway. I drive all the way up without stop.. heheh. n my dad sleeping by my side. reach malacca i was totally tired n exhausted. slept 1am in the morning on friday. woke up 6 am in the morning. then drive non stop..plus the weather hot. Meet my dear cuzzies dere. didnt noe Faiz was talkative. he was talkative sia now. N the lil sis love to tickle me. wat the heck.. yeah i miss them liao.. i miss kampong too. No need alarm clock dere. The rooster will just wake u up. It is so cool at kampong. i can just pluck the rambutan from the tree and eat.. eeheheheeh. losing my voice now. keep eating rambutan and durian.. the fruits are super nice unlike the one that you normally buy in spore..On that sat nite i slept 1 am or 2 am.. then 7am wake up. On sun nite slept 3am woke up 7am. I was super super lack of sleep. My dad too didnt sleep well. But i had to force myself to drive back to JB as my dad sleepy liao.

oh ya on sunday morning we drive our way to KL. this time round my dad drive i sleep. heheh. lucky we manage to find the wedding place in KL. Now i familiar how to go my grandaunt house.. heheehhehehe..too many events happen dere. lazy to type.. anyway i on urgent leave today. cannot tahan. yest reached spore have to go hospital my grandma got hospitalised n had to undergo operation.. i didnt get to rest yest. reached home at ard11pm..I still feeling giddy sia.. must catch some sleep. yawnig liao.

2007-06-29T09:43:00.000+08:00

Yrs past.... aiyo.. Seriously not that I think negative. But ever since secondary. He will nvr turn up. Be it for playing badminton or study together...after school hours. Then he will keep saying.. I really want to come but something happen at the last min. It is always like that.
JC years.. He didnt turn up for my drama rehearsals n he had promised to come. I didnt even asked him to come.. But he was the one who wans to come. Then he didnt come. He had something happen @ his side. Then my JC open house he also cant turn up. N he keep saying sorry.. And as for last sun. Is the same, he has to book in early. There is always something happen.. confirm.. n for today.. i cant meet the both of them.. as i might be taking the late night train to kl. i hate taking bus to kl.. i prefer car or train.

2007-06-25T01:09:00.001+08:00

some of the pics. first part of bdae celebration. Second part in spore was at swensen with azrinah yani zaly n hyrul.

i lurve my bdae cake!! minnie mouse
the prezzie. love all of it.

2007-06-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

It was not easy at first. But end up it a blast day. Had lots of fun. N seriously happy.. Thanks to nisa, sabby, jermin n not forgetting kc. Plus my bestie azrinah n also yani with zaly n hyrul too.ALL of u make my day. Wat a surprise. Thanks for all those who wishes me.. ehehhe
Aft celebration in jb, went to yani house to laze ard. Then yani asked whether i have any plans at nite. N i say no. So they intend to go walk2 at causeway. I was so lazy to touch up. But was scolded. Now i noe y la. They had quietly plan to go swensen hehehhe. sick of earthquake that i wont eat it for a mth sia.

thats all. no need to update so much on today. will dowload the pics n it will say it all
heheeh

2007-06-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

U r the best gal.. Thanks azrinah! I know you are up to something. But too bad he leak it out. ehehe. errr.. i don't think so i m wearing baju kurung. hehe. ya2 i shoudnt say that. It is shocking. Seriously. It is expect the unexpected. Love u so much ina! (i m straightheehhe) thanks. n thanks. How could you keep away frm me. Lucky i didnt change the reservation. Was just abt to that (frust la katerkan) heheehheehhehehe.

What happen today I need some shopping theraphy.So me n my dearest best fren went out to do some shopping. N ya we keep trying clothes but nvr buy. Opps except one same cardigan. Mine is black hers is white.. Woo Hoo.. k we talk abt.. a lot of things.. n there was some lame jokes. thick skin of me.. heheeh.. You know i know.. lol

k sleepy tired but I think I cant sleep tonight. Hope everything goes well for now. hehehe

2007-06-20T13:29:00.001+08:00

i feel so sianz now serious.
no mood
frustrating
irritating
disappointing
piss off
technology seems not to help.
F**K la
arghhhhhhhhhhh..........

2007-06-15T18:57:00.000+08:00

Currently @ werk.. packing to go home. yeah went to collected the souveniors from KC as that CL passes to him yesterday. So i not sure it suppose to be a souvenior or present for me. I got a jigsaw puzzle of Taipei 101!!! I seriously like it. A 1000 pieces of jigsaw puzzle. Hmm i wonder how I can finish it as I still have MY LITTLE MERMAID jigsaw puzzle 500 pieces. lol.

Finally it is Friday and I gonna enjoy the weekends. REST REST. Do some packing for holiday.. heheheheheeheh.. k till then

2007-06-14T18:06:00.000+08:00

The reason I had blogged everyday previously was, the following week I will be busy and no time to do updates. Okay now finally I can update. :) This month, my leg has been giving me problem. Dunno y la. Seriously irritating. A fren of mine scare me saying there might be another bone growing. No doubt it can be true. As my coach once told me, there are highest chances for an extra bone to grow. And he kena b4 which I forget which part of the joints of his. hehe. Yeah anyway it gets better after not wearing heals to work.

On last saturday stayed at home, as cant walk much, scared will be painful again.
On Sunday went for a wedding reception at Woodlands then followed by engagement ceremony at Johor Bahru. Saw him dere. Yeah we only smiled to each. There was no exchanges of remarks or anything. Just one nice dude not really that handsome la but when you see his face you feel peaceful. Example when you are super angry, looking the face you can feel calmness. (ada seri muke, rase tenang). Ever since secondary, finally I see someone who has this look. Seriously he is not handsome like Brad Pitt lol.

Chatted with my fren last nite and this is wat happened.
X: Who is that in the display pic?
Me: She is my close fren in sec days. Finally we got reunited recently
X: orh, anyway she is hot!
Me: Of coz! She is my fren mah.. hehe
X: Is she yr age?
Me: Duh~ hehehe Do u think she is younger than me?
X: No la, she looks like your twin
Me: Ya la we close frens mah

I was like discussing with nisa just now. What the heck was that all abt? She is hot and she is my twin.. and me not hot meh.. i think hot tempered.. lol. k i am just crapping. anyway shikz, my fren says u hot.. a compliment for you babe! :)

Oh ya went to meet Nisa as I am on leave today. I was so blur that i thought I had exit at the wrong exit. lol. should have turn to my right but I turn left. Anyway we had lunch @ Long John Silver and chat on stuffs >>>winkz>>> lol. Had some window shopping, thought of buying my mom prezzie but couldnt find nice ones. nvm will try again tomolo lol.

CL is back from Taiwan. He had wanted to come down my office thats what he say la but then changed his mind and just pass everything to KC as KC workplace nearer to him. Anyway when he called my hp was off. Battery flat la. Lucky he didnt come down office as I not in the office. He gg NS tomolo.. hehe all the best for him in Commando lol.

2007-06-04T12:51:00.000+08:00

shouldnt my leg get worst from that hectic badminton n on sunday i can still wear heels to the reception

but my leg is getting fine now. i aint wearing heels today. dun wish to risk it..heheh..

now lunch time and i m blogging.. lazy to go out n eat lunch.. furthermore i cant walk too much,

even at the reception yesterday i didnt walk much..

as i m blogging.. suddenly my hp vibrate. let me c who it is.. k la i blog more soon.. wow.. i seem to be blogging everyday nowadays.. u will noe y soon..hehehehehe:P

2007-06-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

have been a great weekend for me!!! hehe

Today was the wedding reception of my dad's cousin.. they are not old la.. they are young ppl like early twenties n late twenties respectively. 2 couple for 1 wedding reception at the Singgahsana.

Had great time catching up with my dearie cuzzies.. yeah... 2 big bros was there!! hehe.. but one had to left for werk.. nvm la.. i understand.. someone trying to save up for marriage rite.. eheheheh.. had a long conversation with my the other bro.. yeah he kinda worried now.. wat to do.. we are from a conservative backgrd.. no matter how wild or open minded we are, we had been nurtured to be like that... do belief in her... wah lao. his relationship is like nearly 10 years liao.. anyway thanks for the advices bro. i wil heed yr advices +winks+

sometimes a long relationship can be meaningless. serious.. i encountered 2 situation..

For first situation, he has no longer have faith in the relationship and tired to keep hold on the relationship. he seems to be liking someone who is not pretty but seems attractive to him.. ehehheheh.. how's that possible...? he keep asking me that. sometimes it is better to be with someone not due to their loooks. coz ppl say looks doesnt last u noe. at least find someone who is acceptable through yr eyes.. helllo. u will be like living with that person yr whole life.. so must be someone who u r willing to c everyday.. heheh

at some moment we might feel that person is handsome or pretty, but can we tahan the character or attitude of that person? Loving the person due to their character is better..
should choose someone u r comfortable with and u are able to communicate well.. yeah.. i have yet to find...heehhe

For second situation, he unsure that the girl will be the one. the one that are able to nurture the children and keep the marriage going. Who is seriously the wife material la. he even says that if the gal found someone, he will easily let her go.. willingly..

now we all are waiting for who will be next on the list to get married as one by one my generation are getting married.. last yr Got 1. this yr 2.. next yr? no one knows.. can be anybody.. eheheh

yeah my dear 2 sistas should be on the top list. eheh..
ya quite true.. so difficult to find the suitable guy la..

if too good also not good la.. we wan someone who is fun to be with.. cant possibly we are the one who keep talking and they listen.. so boring.. serious.

July another wedding.. my mom cousin.. hehehe.. but it will be in KL.. yeah!
KL here i come.. ehehheheehehheh

2007-06-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

With tendon inflammation, I still went to play badminton with my frens.. had book the court 2 weeks ago.. hehe.. yeah it was fun.. me nisa nad sabby kc n jermin. jess cant make it. n chong ting i tot she had driving today..eheehhehehe

anyway it was fun fun fun fun fun.. watelse do i say.

after badminton, me sabby n kc went to eat at BAnQuet.. then go home..
i very sleepy now. dunno wat to elaborate on.

bleah~ seriously EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED 'winks'

2007-06-01T08:42:00.000+08:00

damn.. tendon inflammation again.. super boring sia like this. cant even walk ard. my doctor is damn angry with me for not taking care of my tendon. It is gonna be serious if it is not well taken care of.. can be to the worst stage. wah lao.. stop scaring me.

Lucky onli one leg. When i was in Poly both my leg kena tendon inflammation. so sianz. cant even walk sia.. go toilet is like so difficult also.

i wont repeat it again for both leg to be injured. No heelies for me. k i need to wear shoes without heels to work. it will put strain to my tendon.. dammit.

k today didnt go to werk. for the whole week i had force to werk even though it was painful n i actualli still meet them last wed at vivo. but the pain is tolerable la. yesterday became worst when i woke up. and i make it worst be driving the car.. my fault la. i insisted on driving. but after that my dad took over. i can feel the pain even though i not walking. Today.. it look swollen! very.. n tomolo how to play badminton.. i can just watch u all play.. heheh.. i need to eat the painkiller now.. it is so painful.. argh!!!. i think i need to rest on bad liao.

2007-05-31T00:45:00.000+08:00

each time i type something i erase it.. again n again. i dunno wat to type

2007-05-27T09:52:00.000+08:00

It is so nice to be able to meet my secondary frens. Bring back old memories..
The time when we skipped tuition together, played monopoly etc.
That was so cool. We recollected memories of yesterYEARs. If not for nadira getting engaged today, it will be difficult for us to meet.

No doubt we do keep in contact. But it has been difficult to meet up. Each and everyone of us are busy with life.. Finally, I have GRADUATED. And same goes to my sec frens. We seriously need some catching up to do here.

They reminded me of what I had really wanted to do. I had always wanted to further in Malay Studies thats why i went JC. COz I had planned to go university and take malay studies.. Either be a teacher or a writer or journalists or researcher..

I should have followed my heart and took arts stream instead of science stream.. argh.. till now my dad actualli blames my drama activity in JC that causes me not to be able to do well in JC.
All the late nights rehearsal had actualli caused harmed to my studies.. dunno le.. but i had enjoyed the drama PESTA PETI PUTIH. It was the most memorable event in JC.

Yeah there were 2 things that i really like.. taking accounts n also malay studies.. now i have got my Dip in accountancy what i want too.. should i take malay studies now?
Go NIE? Go NUS/NTU for my Malay Studies? Go KL take MAlay studies, follow the steps of my malay teacher.. or? just take ACCA or RMIT.. omg. i dunno...or just work for the moment and continue studies in 3 yrs time.. or just stop at diploma only.

yeah my dad told to pray n ask for guidance.. hmmmmm.... which i think i will do arh.. as my head gonna explode soon thinking of wher to go.

k i m suppose to go for chalet.. but i changed my mind.. lazy too far to the east.. north to east.. i rather be in sembawang yesterday at my frens house helping out. today i not sure whether to come down the chalet or not.. it is a 3 days 2 nites thingy. aiyo lazy arh.. anyway my dad taking the car. if i have the car for myself today, i dont mind dropping by there for a while.

oh ya.. abt yesterday. me n shikz decorated one of the basket.. it is nice. heheh.. i will upload the pic of the basket. i love the ribbon.. we are so pro rite? *winks*

look at the time.. i need to go nadira's house now to help out.. ehehe. finally now we know who is getting engaged first.. n it is not me.. heheh.. so wont kena kacau.. as during sec days.. we were talking who gonna get engaged or married first.. n finally the answer revealed after 5 yrs.. eeheheh..

tata for now. wo hen gaoxing! lol

2007-05-23T14:29:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I hurt myself by hating you
Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

....got a shock of my life....

2007-05-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

omg. isit true? but seriously i noe she is capable of doing that. but how could she? u have always been dere for her.. i seriously dun understand la but i dun wan to ask so much as i might be digging my own grave.. n in the first place i didnt ask.. u told me willingly .. teehee.. so saadiah u better act blur.

Yeah i got someone i noe sitting near me.. my seat no. is U14 n cl is U16.. wonder who is U15. cl was hoping wq or kc or his baobei to sit U15.. ehhehe. . fat hope la cl. kc is U22 i think.. n wenni not coming grad.. sure wan he wont come.. n cant be baobei sitting at seat no. U15.. might be some stranger.. eheh

k next week one of my sec fren getting engaged n she just informed me this week.
Actualli she told me at ard feb that she getting engaged in May. and her engagement ceremony clashes with my relative bdae.. damn. i promise her that i will overnite for the chalet but how to overnite when the very next day i have to attend engagement ceremony.
Cant possibly bring my baju kurung to the chalet rite? it will be so so troublesome. aiyo..
oh n i dunno wat to get for both of them... sianzzzzzzz.

my mom bdae is also coming up.. aiyo.. how many presents must i buy for this month.. boo hoo hoo..

k will type more soon.. ehehh

2007-05-18T12:20:00.001+08:00

recently met ranting and kasut.. ehehe.. my nick is .........u will soon find out..hahaha out of all name..
Yeah it was fun meeting them.. the last time we met up was i think last yr.. i can still remember it was at burger king.

my poly fren had accompanied me there as he was waiting for his girlfriend to knock off from werk. and i was waiting for my frens..@ plaza singapura.

aft 1 yr.. we finally met.. but i do meet ranting occassionally when both ouf us are free.. it has been very difficult to get kasut as she had started working aft jc. as for me n ranting we still schooling.

abt 3 of us, we met during the first three month in Jurong Institute which is now known as Millenia Institute. yeah we became close buddies thereafter. however aft 3 mths we splitted... as kasut goes to Jurong JC n ranting remains in Jurong institute.. as for me i went PJC.
took the same subjects even aft we went to diff schools.
N now onli ranting managed to get into U. as for the 2 of us, we didnt.. but i got my diploma.. JC not easy u noe.. so stressful..eheheh

yeah ranting u can do it man in U. i have faith in u.. hehe

on sat meeting ranting with (dib n yati) the 2 of them r ranting's bestie. watch dib bro play soccer...... (suke ranting) ehheeh.. oh ya anyway dun worry ranting i will try to change the font la when i free..eheheheheh

2007-05-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. wat do i wan to crap ah?

the ring that i just got is too big for me.. moral of the story dont buy stuff when u too tired or sleepy.. when ppl ask, u just keep saying.. "ya ya can fit" but nevertheless i love the ring. it is so shiny n there is NO diamond.. good.. coz it is difficult to maintain a ring with a diamond. unless it is a wedding ring, then i will take xtra gd care of it la.

hmmm... finally i have painted my room by myself.. it is peach.. yeah... how refreshing.
surveyed some furniture shop last weekend n i was so in love with the small swing.. n i intend to put in my room.. i can imagine me sitting n reading book.. so shiok man sit on the swing.. n sing lullaby.. heeheh... sit on the swing n remember the memories that i will keep reminding myself.. heheehehehehe

k la i gtg.. nitey nitey niteX

it is too soon

2007-05-05T14:48:00.000+08:00

i noe it is coming. but i didnt noe it will be too soon..
it is too fast.
i had just graduate.
just able to adapt with work life..
now more changes to come.

if it is next yr, i will be fine with it. but now.. it is seriously too soon.
But I had agreed to it.
22/5/07 the final outing for me?

No doubt i am still able to meet my frens. but it wil be diff.
totally diff.

all these reminds me of the sec days. me n shikin. we had planned to stay kl together.. lol.plan to buy an apartment there. me n her keep talking abt gg dere. lol

wat she say was true. she noe wat i m thinking. n she says it.

2007-04-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

Frm afar i knew it was u.
U lighten up my day with a smile.
N how i hope time will just pause for a moment.
A moment which act as an illusion.
Illusion for me to carry on breathing.
Breathing the air that comes from the bus exhaust. hehe..

Omg i m crapping..

adapting well with work now. kinda fun working. yeah i gonna watch SPIDERMAN 3 on 3rd MAy yahoo!!.. I got free ticket for myself which is proudly sponsered by Microsoft.. lol

MY day yesterday.. hmm.. oh ya.. i had forgotten to bring my hp. The first thing i did once i reached home, was to check my hp. Damn.. full of smses n miss calls.. my juniors sms me to ask for books. COrporate finance la audit la..

wanting to type more. nvm.. i lazy..

till then

....////....////....

2007-04-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

Look at me

You may think you see

Who I really am

But you'll never know me

Every day

It's as if I play a part

Now I seeIf I wear a mask

I can fool the world

But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me

When will my reflection show

Who I am insideI am now

In a world where IHave to hide my heart

And what I believe in

But somehowI will show the world

What's inside my heart

And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see

Staring straight back at me

Why is my reflection

Someone I don't know

Must I pretend that I'mSomeone elseFor all time

When will my reflection show

Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly

That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal

What we think

How we feel

Must there be a secret meI'm forced to hideI

won't pretend that I'mSomeone else

For all timeWhen will my reflection showWho I am inside

When will my reflection show Who I am inside

Lyrics for Reflection by Christina Aguilera

haiz

2007-04-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes be like wen qiang better. i understand how he feels. being the only child is not that easy. We will easily get attached to ppl n easily get hurt. n at some point we r too nice to ppl.
n they just take advantage of u. u r angry but u cant really show it. but at some moment or another u can easily blast. n it is bad when it blasts. omg. bad bad bad. sometimes i wish to vanish or disappear. wouldnt it be better. at least i wont cause confusion to ppl n i wont hurt them. trying my very best not to hurt ppl but in the end i get hurt.

i said something to chai lye that he felt hurt..k i didnt mean it wat i say.. n seriously i m touched that in whatever we do, u think abt me. eg kc wanna eat some non halal place, then u dun wan due to me.. so, thank you.

when down for maulidur rasul celebration today.
miss my cuzzie n relatives. yeah. one of them having a bdae party at a chalet this coming may. cant wait

hmmm.. yest watched movie with part of my classmates. no more late night movies except with my cuzzies coz they got bike n can send me home.. eheehe

sometimes i think i talk too much that i guess i better shuttup.

haiz...

2007-04-14T03:10:00.000+08:00

how i wish my bro is ard. he understands his lil sis very well. bro plz come back.
whatever it is, i noe my boundaries very well n i wont cross it.. seriously.
but it seems that it doesnt seems what it seems to be.
i think it is a gd idea given. but it is a risk that i need to face. very risky. i may or may not be happy with the consequences that i will be facing.
everything has a limit n it seems accumulated n exceed whatever the limit is. dont make me lose hope n make all the things come crushing all over. by the time it happen, it is irreversible. i must sort this things first before i could even handle it. give me a mth or 2 or even 4eva to be away frm it. n i noe i may regret it. haiz... y? i kept trying to but i couldnt. at some extend it is difficult on my part.

y am i writing this. coz a fren told me to pour how i feel in the blog so i can feel better. i now i feel much better.. n i will heed her advice on that.
This is follow up of the previous emo entry.. heheh *winkz*

2007-04-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

CINTA

umpama lembayung senja

hadirnya sementara

indahnya sekejap cuma

CINTA

amat asyik membelai rasa

sering diamuk rindu

gelisah mainan bicara

CINTA

adalah teka-teki dan tanda tanya

adalah benci, adalah sengketa

CINTA

mungkinlah sekadar illusi

atau sekadar igauan di siang hari

BEGITULAH CINTA

Janji...hanya ungkapan yang tak bertepi

Bahagia...hanya mimpi yang tak pasti

Adapted from:

Novel: Kamasutra - Sharifah Abu Salem

2007-04-02T14:36:00.000+08:00

"I was at the Airport that night...waiting for my flight as the rest of the world is asleep...i wanted to call u that night...but i didn't...i dunno why...and the day before yesterdae...when we met...i wanted to tell how much i loved you...and miss you...guessed it didn't work out as planned...And now...out in the field...thinking about you...day by day i'm missing you...regretting it for not telling you...haiz...if only i could see u that night...wrap my arms around u...hold u tight...telling you that everything's gonna be alright...that i'll be away for awhile and i'll be back....... everythings seems too far right now..."

wish him all the best wif whoever she is.. heehhe

hmmm.. i currently having indigestion now.. keep burping.. argh.. ehehe
2nd week of werk but still slacking aite.. k i burp again..so sianz.. i feel like farting.. lol

2007-03-30T16:29:00.000+08:00

currently i am at workplace. To let time flies, let me update my blog. Seriously i dun like to talk about work yet. It is just a normal routine.
Lets talk abt my life.
Nothing much happened. It seems just like a daily routine. Wake up early, go to work, go home, eat dinner. Then fetch or send my mom to work.
This coming Good Friday the malay gerls plan to meet up. The purpose is to celebrate Linda bdae. An advance celebration.

oh ya recently i kepo n view my fren's blog. OMG she bought her ex a psp.... for her EX bdae she buy psp if bf ok la. oh saadiah u getting evil. if for me i wont buy for my bf i rather buy it for myself. yeah i m evil. i dun personally buy prezzies for guys except my cuzzies. n depends on situation la. hehehehehe..
20 more mins to 5.30pm yeah can go home... k la wanna logout..tata

3rd day @ werk

2007-03-28T08:51:00.000+08:00

3rd day @ work n i feel so sianz.. dunno y. actualli dont feel like coming to work today... haiz.. lucky my dad not working so he can send me just now.. heheh... hmmm..
last monday met up with the IB classmates. it consists of my ib grp members except C.T plus pu hong. hmmm.. hmmm.. kinda shocked. jess plan the outin la.. hehe.. n kc keep disturbing pu hong n jess.. hahaa..
as usual my journey home that day was irritating. lol

k.. gradution ceremony. everybody is coming except for yvonne's grp. they not coming. i wonder wats with them..
i got to noe frm siew fang. however siew fang is going.. no prob siew fang, u have all of us.. eehehe..
k la gtg get back to work!!

2007-03-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. right aft the kenduri i resume my job hunting. so on that tues i was called for interview at ard boon lay area i guess. one of the mnc national oilwell varco. ok it was ok la.
then on wed another interview at alexandra technopark.. when for interview at 3.30 pm. ard 5.30pm they called me n say i got the job.. lol
so i guess i wont wait for far east org. bye2.. hehe.. here comes microsoft instead.
cant possibly wait for far east it is nearly a mth now i guess. even though my frens told me my id is ready the hr should actually call me n confirm it mah. hmmm.. nvm... yea.. starting next week..
everything follow as planned. i didnt wan to start work so fast.. tats y i find work slowly. hehe..

enough of having fun. work work work now!!

2007-03-18T13:06:00.000+08:00

FAMILY is still the best no matter wat.
even though i rarely meet my cuzzie.. but the bondness is still there. the closeness b/w us. blood just bond us.. hehe.
yest. we had some family gathering at my house (kenduri doa selamat). my grandpa actually requested every mth to have this event. lol.. can t possibly my family keep organising it aite? hehe.. but nvm it will be ard next yr or most prob the end of the yr, we may have some gathering again .. perhaps perhaps perhaps. .

yea yea yea. it was so fun. played playstation even my uncles n aunties join the fun.. funny at how my uncle play playstation game. we played puzzle bubble i think so la.. thats the game all age can play hehe..event starts after asar (ard 5pm like that). all went home ard midnight. foods that we cater was nice. my aunts brought cakes n jelly.. i loike! heheh..

oh ya. had private talk with my cuzzies.. which is so funny. we sounded more like detective.. yeah cuzzie u have to remain low profile for now.*winkz* took pic with my cuzzie.. but better not post it. coz they r my guardian angels (lame)..lol. so better not to be known.

my bdae is like jun but my cuz actually book me earlier for my bdae celebration. going SEOUL GARDEN! lol. he scared i will be busy like last year.. he suppose to give a treat for my bdae.. end up he had to treat me like ard november that time instead of june. hehe

it was so tiring aft the whole thing finish.. had to wash all the periuk blanga..wat the heck. nvm.. i can still smile even though i am so tired. hehe..

yeah GOing JB tomolo with my aunt family!! i am enjoying my holiday to the fullest man!!!!

adios amigos

2007-03-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

Stars twinkling in the sky

Bringing light n shimmers

Brightening the cool blue night

Wishing upon the stars

Prayers were put to hold

Waiting for the mornig sun to shine

Breeze of the wind

Put me to sleep

Awaiting the very next day

With a golden smile

2007-03-13T13:45:00.000+08:00

more pics during dnd

brandon me n kc. kc? hmmm.. wat can i say.. we always quarrel n quarrel n quarrel. yr 3 got worst. haiz..

chai lye n me.. wat can i say.. he like a brother to me.. he himself admit he treat me like his dear sister.. thanks for all the advice all this while.. appreciate it.

taqi n me.. yr 1 my class tried to matchmake us. but it didnt happen anyway coz we remain cool when they keep matchmake both of us. unlike some ppl. theY stop matchmake us coz someone else actually like him.. heheh n not me la.
not that close to him. maybe should have tried to know him better. heheeh

me n blur jx. yr 1 was close to him.. very nice guy.. so cute to kacao him.. hehe.

i noe wat u did during chalet.. hehe.. dont worry no evidence ya!

chai lye n nad (supposedly to be partner for the nite)

DAC 01 n 02 yr 2 class reps

nad smiling away.. wats with tat face nisa?.. hehe

a kiss for my mummy!!

trios!!! me n nisa share jermin to be our partner.hehe
nisa. "u gave me strength to carry on." if not for her n nad i wont be smiling during the dnd. hehe

DAC 04!!

me n mummy!! muax! love ya!

me n jermin.. thanks for making me feel good that day*winkz*

he is my protector/shield during International business together wif chong ting *winkz*

w/o him n c.t i can die for the pjt work. they r my two pillars for me to hold on.

2007-03-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

some of the grad ball pics. it was a hectic day for me today. was so tired during the grad ball that i lazy to tolerate nonsense. can say expressionless at times. hehe. 12 noon i had to Go for driving practice till 2pm. practice the circuit. then practice again at 3.30pm. .. eheh.. at 4.30pm driving test n the grad ball at 7pm. bukit gombak all the way to tiong bahru. lucky wasnt that late. tomolo still have to go interview at mediacorp sianz..yeah finally i get my class 3 licence..yea!!!!! so happy.

just gone with the wind :P

2007-03-07T08:57:00.000+08:00

woo hoo.. finally no Ds this time. results out today. no ds i m so happy.. hehe.. yeah get diploma. now i will pursue for degree. hehe

2007-03-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

lets put the previous emo post aside.lol hey updates on the chalet. b4 the bbq even start someone is trying to sleep.. lol.. here r some of the pics taken..

roselind proposing to ee ling? *winks
(just part of the sabo that they have to do..eheh)

aww..so sweet! :P

foods!!!

gays united? lol

omg this is the results being with too many girls in class. hehe

me n tq b4 we do the sabo *winkz*

me n my darling! *smilez*

thanks for coming my dearest classmates DAC 01! u GUys r just superb! i will cherish every moments we had eversince yr 1. throwing papers during lectures n tutorials. playing daidee. skipping lectures n tutorials. playing pools etc. love u all to the max! ~muacks~

2007-03-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

aft anything happens, u treat like nothing had ever happen. it was like a passing remarks.
n for u, it is just a small matter. u dont even care whether it is hurtful or not.. u just go yr way. but if it was to be done to u, u say i will be insensitive. is this fair? have u ever thought for a second wat u r saying. wat if i take it seriously n grant yr wish.. u dun even care rite? it is nothin for u. when i think abt it, i feel so so down. i feel that i m nothin. nothing.. m i being so sensitive or wat? there is always limit to something. i dont think i can handle it anymore. can i? when i say i dun mind. did i really mean it? y is this happpening. i m not lookin forward in anything now. sacrifices seems not worth at all. y am i always stuck in this position? ? y i let this happen? i was able to choose wat i want. but the decision made always hurt me. i m hurting myself in silence. it always been me try to understand, had u tried to be in my position. have u even think of it. i dun think so.. u r not that kind of person. i m utterly disappointed in u. wats there left to saY? if it seems that way then be it. dont repeat the qn to me. my ans will be the same. i dun mind at all.. thats how it will be. n it will always be.. i m so used tt i cant change my habit. nobody save me b4 frm drowing in this type of situation..funny, it is true wat my fren had said. sometimes the person that u thought will always be wif u is not the one who will be there forever. sometimes the one u neglected r the precious gems that u didnt notice. y care for someone who dont care. y worry for someone dont worry. if u r an information centre then u r just that. FULLSTOP! thinkin too much on trivial matters is a waste of time i guess. so i better put this all aside. i should attend to something more worthwhile.. if u dun understand. its k.. some things r better not to be known. then it will be the last time then. will there ever be tomorrow. it depends how u react. i too tired n sianz alr. i cant stop thinking of it now. i feel so weak tt i dun even understand how to face u. how my attitude towards u. should i be normal or should i ignore or should i just.. haiz..u will nvr notice it anyway. coz u r one ignorant brat. so makes my job easier then. hehe.. then i will treat u like majority. thats wat u really wan right. k i will.. u dun feel the diff anyway. then let it be la. u oso make the statement yrself. u alr assume it. when i didnt even start to say it. feel better now. now i can go sleep. hehe :P

segala pahit ku telan bagai tdk ader maknanye. bagaimana harus ku katekan bile ku sendiri tdk memahami apa yg sedang ku alami. semuer berakhir seperti ku baru tersedar dari tidur ku. kate2 sinismu membuat ku bertambah pilu.

2007-03-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

lol.. i dont even understand the situation lor. sometimes ok sometimes ko.. aiyo.. but everything got limit wat.. wat m i typing sia.. haha.. k i still sleepy

2007-03-04T19:06:00.000+08:00

cool... the chalet went as planned.. played the game that i tot of.. ok la kinda lame.. but we had lots of fun
hmm cant update much coz too sleepy.. i will blog again.. soon

2007-03-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

feeling sick suddenly.. actually not la. since morning. stomach problem again.. hehe.. nvm hear advice thats y. now like having fever n tomolo have chalet. hmmm.. i wonder how it is gonna be tomolo. previous one was a bit disappointing. but lucky it turn out well in the end. THe first chalet was still the best!!!

My dear jermin.. u r not forgotten k.. u always remembered. if not, i would not even thought of meet u just now.. :)
how would i noe u not workin anymore.. k. one of the day we go nisa office together k..

k i need some rest now!